*singing* here I go again on my own...

Ok, so not on my own, but that song popped into my head just now. I just signed up for weight watchers again. I have done it once or twice before and it works, I just never stuck with it. I hope to this time. I'm really scared to fail though. This is the only thing that has really ever helped me before and I just really want to be able to do it. I am bigger than when I was 9 months pregnant with my kids and I am over it. I am tired of being tired, I am tired of hating what I see in the mirror. I am tired of my lack of confidence. I want to make this change, for good this time. But only by the grace of God will it happen. Despite what the title of this blog says, I CAN'T do it on my own. I can NOT accomplish this by myself. I NEED God to help me through. I need to ask HIM daily to get me through that day.  I NEED to be here for my kids as they grow up. So far I have no negative health problems because of my weight (except maybe infertility, but the ruling is still out as to whether that is from my weight or not). I know I am blessed to be healthy thus far, I am not going to continue to risk it. So please pray with me and for me as I start this lengthy journey!