day 5

So the last 2 days have been rough. I am visiting with my parents and on Sunday we had to eat out 2 times and yesterday we went to Idlewild park and so packed one lunch and ate out for the other one. So...I have not done great, but I have done the best that I could under the circumstances. I chose water over other things, grilled chicken over burgers, fruit over chips, but I ate some pizza:) The pizza place by my brother's house has the most amazing pizza!! But I stopped when I was full.  Today I think we are sticking around the house, so it should be better!! But I am still encouraged, am watching the numbers on the scale drop already, and am still excited!! Praying today goes well, that I will feel satisfied with what I can have, and to keep feeling encouraged!!

Success!!

Day 2 is winding down and I did really well! I had oatmeal with some brown sugar on it for breakfast, a salad with steak, hard boiled egg, and olive garden dressing on it for lunch, I snuck in a bottle of water and some grapes to see Harry Potter, and I had 2 bacon wrapped filets for dinner and a bit of stuffing ( I didn't care for the stuffing so I didn't eat it and saved my points!) Feeling a little hungry now, mostly because I didn't eat enough at dinner, but I still have 17 points left!! Woo-hoo!! So I am going to have a cupcake that I made and then who knows!! Thanks for all the prayers, they are working, because so far this is going well!!

day 1 done

I did it!! 1 down, a whole lot more to go!!

day 1, so far so good

Well day 1 is nearing it's end. I technically still have 13 points left, but I have dedicated 8 of those to a cupcake that I made today! However, evenings are the hardest time for me! I just always feel hungry, and munchy and just like I need SOMETHING. But with the new points plus plan, all fruit is free! 0 points!! So I will have my cupcake, then use up the other 5 points on something (they say you should use all of your points everyday), then I have some watermelon if I "need" something later! Feeling good and proud of my day 1!!

Oh, I did take some "before" pictures yesterday. But I don't really want to post those until I have a smaller one to compare it to. I am not quite ready for that. But I look forward to being ready for that!! Next week I am going to my mom's house. So hoping that I can keep it together and do well! It is usually easier for me there because they don't snack in the evening so I don't usually either.

*singing* here I go again on my own...

Ok, so not on my own, but that song popped into my head just now. I just signed up for weight watchers again. I have done it once or twice before and it works, I just never stuck with it. I hope to this time. I'm really scared to fail though. This is the only thing that has really ever helped me before and I just really want to be able to do it. I am bigger than when I was 9 months pregnant with my kids and I am over it. I am tired of being tired, I am tired of hating what I see in the mirror. I am tired of my lack of confidence. I want to make this change, for good this time. But only by the grace of God will it happen. Despite what the title of this blog says, I CAN'T do it on my own. I can NOT accomplish this by myself. I NEED God to help me through. I need to ask HIM daily to get me through that day.  I NEED to be here for my kids as they grow up. So far I have no negative health problems because of my weight (except maybe infertility, but the ruling is still out as to whether that is from my weight or not). I know I am blessed to be healthy thus far, I am not going to continue to risk it. So please pray with me and for me as I start this lengthy journey!

not eating enough?!!

I had an appointment with a nutritionist yesterday. I was nervous about it because I am a super picky eater and I struggle with eating healthy because of it. Well she asked me for a sample menu for a day and I thought I was telling her good stuff, but she came to the realization that I am not eating enough. I was sort of shocked! She thinks that my meals aren't balanced enough and so my body has gone into reserve mode trying to hang onto the fat to survive because it thinks I don't have food to give it. So all these months when I was trying to eat less and couldn't figure out why I wasn't really losing anything, it's because I wasn't eating enough to keep my body functioning!! So she gave me a game plan that is totally doable and I am encouraged and ready to get going!!

walk away those pounds!!

I am down 3.5 lbs since yesterday!! Woo! It's amazing what a little healthy eating and a little going to bed hungry will do for you!! I am so excited to see the scale moving so quickly! It does amazing things for my motivation. Plus this time, this is for my kids and for the baby we can't yet conceive. I bought a couple of "walk away the pounds" videos today at Sam's Club. They had packs that came with bands too. One is called walk away your waist and the other is walk away your hips and thighs (yes please!). The kids did it with me and it was so fun! Plus I know these are doable for me where I am right now. It is a 3 mile DVD and we just did 1 today, I want to feel good enough to do it tomorrow too!!

Tonight for dinner we are having lean italian turkey sausage, salad, and strawberries! I am so excited for this journey! My clothes are already fitting me better just from the 15 lbs I have lost so far!   

Prayers are appreciated and coveted!